all my fountains.

Anyone of you who is close to me or has spent some time reading my blog posts would know that I struggle with feeling like I am a "good person." I have somehow, over my almost 21 years, trained myself to think that I am no good. 

Somewhere over the last 8 months God swept in and began showing me who and what I really am. It has been a process and I'm not sure if I will ever fully understand who I am until I meet with Christ face to face in heaven. But I, with the small capacity that my human mind can handle, have begun to understand the way God thinks of me.

I have struggles that I may never fully overcome while on Earth. The difference from 8 months ago and now is that those struggles no longer define who I am. The over-thinker who could think himself into any number of negative situations that are destructive to himself and those around him... is not my title.

No, instead it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me. Christ, being my identity, is good. All previous ways of thinking that I am not good have to take a step out of my life. Christ did not die on a cross so that Brett would continue to live defeated. He died on a cross so that all people would have the opportunity to live in peaceful harmony with their creator. He died on a cross so that no matter what we do with or think about ourselves.. we remain good in him.

So I, in the closing of this post, would like to share with you something from the Bible and a few sentences that C.S. Lewis wrote in his book Mere Christianity.

"For we are what he has made us, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand to be our way of life."

- Ephesians 2:10 

"The Christian is in a different position from other people who are trying to be good. They hope, by being good, to please God if there is one; or - if they think there is not - at least they hope to deserve approval from good men. But the Christian thinks any good he does comes from the Christ-life inside him. He does not think God will love us because we are good, but that God will make us good because He loves us." 

-- C.S. Lewis